“Tough times have scientific value; good learners should never miss them”

Do I agree? I don’t know…But I have surely believed strongly that if something goes wrong with my life I will face it without shedding even one tear. As you can all guess this is not what happened. My life changed in one day, in a simple visit to doctor. I like being independent. I couldn’t be after that one visit. I valued then on what I had taken for granted all along-being normal. It was a tough time. Since then it has been a rough ride. I miss being me, I hate being pampered because of that, I missed a big opportunity because of that. Did it hurt? You bet! It was devastating! But it passed away. At least the feeling that all is lost. But the pain is still there somewhere at the back of my mind. I try not to think of it very often, but it comes back every time I have another setback. You know what the worst thing about humans is- we remember a lot! And mostly the bad part. And we have a habit of adding everything up and then assessing our life. Obviously after that it seems that our life is a living hell. You forget the good things that happened in between. Even I do, after all I’m human too. Those are the worst times. Many nights I go to sleep with tears rushing down my cheeks. But then again every morning brings a new hope.

At the beginning of all this, I was thinking very negatively. Wondering why am I the one who has to face all this? Why can’t I have a normal life like others? Slowly I got tired of thinking like that, yes tired! I’m no great person who can think positively even at the time of crisis. But then I thought to myself, I have to live with this, no matter how much I crib to myself, no matter how long I mourn! I was tired of pitying myself! I started looking at this as an opportunity that life has given me. To get some new experience, to take a break from a fast life, to stand and watch life pass by, enjoy it as it goes, not regret later that I didn’t get time. I started feeling better immediately! I changed my outlook. I started feeling happier. I started feeling alive again.
But sometimes I feel the depression coming back. This morning I got this in mail-

God will not give you a burden you cannot handle…
If you ever find yourself in a mess that you cant resolve…Take it as a compliment.
God thinks you can do it.

I’m taking it as a compliment….
Cheers!